Some people have been talking about the rapture happening on September 18, 2020. I have heard some of the arguments, and watched some of the videos. This has been bothering me. I have plans for my future, I’m preparing myself to be a godly, and wise wife. Ready to take on the hardships of homesteading. I’m looking forward to learning to live on a tight budget so that we can slowly build a life we want. I’m waiting patiently for a husband that God will send me in His time.
These are all good things, but after seeing the video of a pastor explaining why he believes the rapture will happen, I have been struggling. I don’t want the rapture to happen yet. I feel like I can’t go on living because if the rapture happens in four days, then I’ve been learning all this for no reason. I have money put away that I was planning to use to send Christmas Shoeboxes this Christmas. Doesn’t God want me to use my money for that? It’s been hard, but God has been teaching me. Showing me where I need to grow.
I have always believed what the Bible says in Matthew 25:13 “Watch therefore, for ye know neither the day nor the hour wherein the Son of man cometh.” Very simple, right? Be watching because nobody knows the day or the hour. There’s not much to interpret. But the video I watched, the man explained why that’s not the meaning behind it. He explained that in the Greek it means no one knows “about” the day or the hour. We don’t know what kind of traffic there may be, or what our boss may throw at us. So he predicts, and he has some very plausible theories, that we will be rapture on Rosh Hashanah, or the Jewish New Year.
Anyway, I’ve been trying to figure out what is happening. Like I said, I didn’t really want the rapture to happen yet. So I’ve been praying, and God has been working in me. Basically, I’ve come to several conclusions.
One, my heart was in the wrong place. I’ve allowed my dreams of the future to become an idol. You know, God works in amazing ways. He showed me this through a Veggietales cartoon. Of all the ways He could have shown me. It was amazing to me, because I already knew that the fact that I was offended that my father showed me the video was a sign that all was not well. But I was watching the Noah’s Ark Veggitales, and the main plot of the story was about how Shem had dreams of building a life with his new wife, but God had plans to flood the earth, and to have them live in the Ark for a long time. It sounded a lot like what I was going through. It may sound silly, but I am thankful for the ways God works.
Two, whether the rapture may happen on the 18th, or tomorrow, or in 20 years I should be watching and waiting. I realized that if the rapture is to happen in four days, I should probably be out telling people to repent, for the day of the Lord is at hand. I have been waiting till “I grow up and get married” to start evangelizing. I’ve been living like I have many years ahead of me; and I might, but I shouldn’t count on it. The psalmist writes in Psalm 90:12 “So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hears unto wisdom.” I don’t know when I might die, or the rapture may happen. But what if I have no gold, silver, or precious stones in heaven? If I don’t have any crowns to lay at Jesus’ feet? What if I get there and all I have is a lot of wood, hay, and stubble. Do you know how much I will regret not having gone about and spreading the Good News?
I’ve always been a quiet type of person, I never really have much to say. Talking to strangers is literally scary to me. The idea of walking up to a stranger and telling them that if they don’t repent of their sins and believe on the Lord Jesus, they will end up in eternal suffering apart from God. It is terrifying to me. I have never done it. But I’m praying that He may work in me and give me a boldness to step out in faith and use me to further His kingdom. Jesus said in Mark 13:11 “But when they lead you, and deliver you up, take no thought beforehand what ye shall speak, neither do ye premeditate: but whatsoever shall be given you in that hour, that speak ye: for it is not ye that speak, but the Holy Ghost.” This is a comfort to me, knowing that the Holy Spirit will speak through me, and I won’t have to come up with what to say. If that were the case, I would spend years trying to come up with the right things to say.
Lord, I pray that You would teach me Your ways. Grow me up and strengthen me, that I may be a usable vessel for Your glory. Give me a boldness as I go out today, that I may be a light to a dying world.
In Jesus name,